ug, spam for my friends

ug - i just can't help myself. this is for anyone who wants to get to know me (superficially) better.




RULES (the rules don't matter to me, do this if you want, or not if you don't want)

1. Tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!) *please tag yourself*
2. Answer all truthfully
3. Take it in public!


[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily. =_=
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
[ ] I hate my dad.
[ ] I hate my mom.
[ ] I have a brother.
[x] I have a sister.
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[ ] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chickenpox
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[x] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts
[ ] I've been to a casino *rolls dice*
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one day
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.
[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship (such as gifts, love-letters, plushies, etc)
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[?] I'm bi.
[ ] I'm gay.
[x] I've had sex.
[ ] I've had phone sex.
[ ] I've cybered.
[ ] I've had sex in public.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain <3
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've done weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick
[x] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've woken up laughing.
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own a plushie of my fave character from anything.
[ ] I own a cosplay outfit
[x] I know what cosplay means.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I can sing well
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs. (i usedn't, but then i went to asia)
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. (navy)
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love. (define love)
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class *3*
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[ ] I loath lables.
[x] I like action movies
[x] I like horror movies.
[ ] I like chick flicks.
[?] I know the most random facts about things people have never heard of before.
[x] I can't spell.
[ ] I treasure my friends.
[ ] I think of others before myself.
[x] All of those are answered honestly

whee - i'm excited

i just found out that there's a new prince of persia game coming out. oh wow. this is so cool. i totally can't wait for it (supposedly christmas this year). yeeeeee.
fangirl moment. wwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
now i'm really going to have to get a new PC. dammit. i can't afford one. i guess i have until christmas to save up. waa - it's so exciting. getting to be the prince again, scaling walls, running along ledges, doing backflips and somersaults and sneaking up on your enemies and stuff. yeay.

not much other news - i've been re-organizing my room for the last 2 days. i got new shelves (well - a shelf-kinda thing and a cupboard-kinda thing) and i've been finding homes for the clutter in my room in them. it's working out quite well, actually.

i'm building up a mild addiction to shivering isles too. i started playing last night at 10; at 12 i told myself to go to bed; i eventually got there at 1:30. terrible. i finished one quest and went to start another - but that one got really interesting so i finished it too. heh.

making changes

bear with me while i create a new style for my journal. this could take a while. i'm re-learning css and trying to figure out how Lj does it all at the same time.

people shouldn't be allowed to ring me (this post get's off this topic)

i just got a call from my bank asking me if i wanted to make any changes to my account details or take out a loan or something, but during the call i managed to drop my graphics tablet on the ground and get the wire for my mouse all caught up. and apart from that i'm totally shaking with the stress of having to talk to an unexpected person.
i'm such an unsocialized (aka shy) person - i just don't do normal human interactions very well.

ah well.

heh - oh yea - yesterday playing shivering isles, there was one part where i was in a kinda freaky area with bones scattered around a garden. i hear a noise like someone whispering or singing insanely or something. it's coming from behind me and is totally freaking me out - it sounds like who's evers making the noise would turn out to be something uberly freaky.
anyway - i turn around, nothing there. oh wait, goes my brain. it's actually coming from behind me in reality. duh - it's my phone ringing.
i had changed the ringtone to a song (helena by my chemical romance) and was totally not used to it. so yea - it was kinda funny. i'm kinda glad i didn't have to face the scary monster. that was one thing that used always get to me playing daggerfall - they'd put in all these crazy sounds and people laughing and stuff and it would freak me out wondering what sort of freaky creature that i can't find is making this pertifing noise. heh - yea. i guess that's why i don't play resident evil or silent hill or stuff - i'd cower in a corner, and when i did venture out i'd save every 3 seconds or something. i get like that playing oblivion sometimes. that's why i love new areas to explore, and why i always play sneaky characters - it's so much fun hanging out in the dark near a wall watching a monster come closer, and closer, and you can't run or he'll spot you, so you just crouch there, praying. and then he moves off and so do you. down the corridor - quick-saving at every corner and sometimes at every step.
yea - it's fun.

right before i got the call i was working on remembering how to draw - i'm cheating and doing a paint over (where you put a photo on a lower layer and basically copy it), but it's helping get me back into the swing of art-stuffs.

my post of firsts

since i got home the first things i've done have been:

1st dinner: roast chicken with mashed and roasted spuds and stuffing and carrots and gravy - yummy. (my second dinner was the leftovers, even yummier - all fried together, mmmmm.)

1st friend i met up with: claire of d+d / taleweavers

1st game i played: oblivion. (then i ran out and bought the game of the year edition for knights of the nine and shivering isles. i did it that way 'cause no where just sold the 2 expansions separately)

1st time i used my new laser (debit) card: to buy shivering isles (i went crazy with my debit card in new zealand (i think $4 was the average price i used it for) the first thing i bought with money was 2 pairs of socks in penneys (primark to those of you in the uk), wow).

1st song listened to: Cocteau Twins – Aloysius (i played my top rated songs on shuffle (info thanks to last.fm))

1st movie i watched: final fantasy advent children

1st book i read: a comic - outer orbit - which i bought in dreamhaven books in minneapolis

ok - i can't think of anything else - feel free to put in additional 1sts for me.

my novel

god - i've made 2 posts in 2008 (this will be my third) that's awful.

anyway. i have some serious work to do on my novel. i have about 10,000 words to type up and the whole thing to edit. i was just messing about with it, reading random sections and while there's a lot of good stuff there, a heap of it isn't organized properly or trails off randomly or reads like a robotic feed or a instruction manual or something.

and then there's the slight inconsistencies, the bits of the plot that just happen out of nothing and aren't really connected to the main plot but that have a nice message. then there's the anguish of my characters which builds well, but i just can't seem to pull off the dialogue endings.

:shrug: it's mostly good though. i can't wait 'til i have some sort of decent manuscript that i can use to get a publisher / editor.

it's not going to happen quickly, though. the entire start is atrocious - i shuddered at the bad writing and reams of info dumping. and i think the middle needs a lot of work too - especially azrynn's character.

the other problem i have is that about a hundred other books are titled "the fall" but i've grown quite attached to the name. oh well :)

i'm home

hello everyone

obvious statement #1: i'm home

it's strangely normal. it's like i havn't left. my room is the exact same, my computer dosn't have anything new on it. the view out my window is unchanged (except that the trees have grown a bit). the only differences are the new windows in the house and new paintings and the hallway got done up. and the fish has gotten bigger.
but it's nice to be home. to be able to play games and listen to music again, and update my journal and go online whenever i want.

obvious statement #2: the year was amazing

our last 4 weeks were spent in a rush trip across america (u.s.) and i totally fell in love with that country. everything from its cities to its national parks are amazing, even though we only got to see as small fraction.

yea... i can't think of anything to say. maybe i'll check back in later.