i should be writing

yesterday was a kind of strange day - full of down and then up. i woke felling absolutely terrible, "why should i get out of bed" kind of terrible. but i did get out of bed + ended up crying over breakfast + my depression fixated on the fact that penelope_stone is way more enthusastic about driving than i am. so that was quite bad, but i talked about it (didn't really help much). so i moped a bit + felt awful (much to the enlivenment of the annoying rational voice at the back of my mind "my eyes look amazingly green when i cry" was one of its nicer comments. yes i am rolling my eyes.)
so i felt a tiny bit better and then daddy (having been told the story by mammy) came up and asked if i wanted to go driving. i said where to + he said blarney and i said sure.
so i drove to blarney and beyond. it had its ups and downs. many hill starts (deadly) and narrow roads (scary) and traffic on the dual carrigeway (indifferent). i nearly gave daddy a heart attack when i swerved infront of a van thing. he told me to pull into the inside lane and i did - just a little too early! heh - it was funny. i conked out sooo many times though - that wasn't really funny. ah well - i just really ignore the cars around me. i think i'm a dangerous driver, especailly on the dual carrigeway: change lanes, ok - the other cars will get out of my way. (no - i'm not quite that bad.)

so then when we got home i started writing and wrote 2,000 words in three hours. it was so cool. i skipped onto chapter 3, which is full of action and thrills and destruction. so it was easy to write. and i dug a load of old soundtracks out and listened to them for inspiration: stargate is a good battle-orientated one. i was sorta thinking about making a few playlists - like: battle, dialogue, pleasant walk, tension, etc, to enhance my mood while writing. that would take a lot of time though. i need more soundtracks though. i have about 10, but its just not enough.

so that's about all i have to say.
goodbye.